I am HIV Positive But I’m not the Virus.

My True Life Journey Living with HIV

I am HIV positive but I’m not the virus and I am proud that I know my status. I take care of myself and i Maintain a positive life style. Its been 15 years living with the virus but I’m still going strong each day.

Let me share a shot sad story with you about my own self …… This is not a myth but my True Life Story.

I was once a street kid and I used to take drugs thinking that they are good for me, but didn’t see I was destroying my future.

I graduated from smoking drugs and I become a drug supplier. I could see that I was living a good life and feared by my all peers. But this was all meaningless in didn’t see I was digging my own grave.

I could sleep with any women I want to, and I became a hardcore womaniser breaking women’s heart more often even those whom were innocent.

I couldn’t realise that whatever you do to others will come back to you beyond measure.

I remember when I was only 19 years I had to reap what I have sown.

I was sentence to serve 38 years and I went to prison at a very young age knowing that I am HIV positive.

To be honest it was hard to face prison life with my condition and I tried many times to commit suicide, but God preserved my life to become a powerful author and game changer to the world.

I am now out of prison no matter how hard life may be but I Say NO to CRIME And Drugs.

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God’s Purpose Will Always Prevail, No Matter what!

Ex prisoner.
Life Changing Speaker.
HIV & Aids Activist.
Life Coach.
Mentor.
Leadership Coach.
Philanthropist.
Philosopher.
Business Coach.
Youth Trainer.

I had to be sentenced to 38 years to discover my life purpose and become a renowned Author. And unleash the potential which was hidden within myself.

I had to stay on the street, and sleeping on the cold freezing weather for 7 years without anyone to comfort me or wipe away my tears.

I had to drink alcohol like water for many decades thinking that I was doing the right thing, but I was destroying my future…!!!!

I had to suffer and starve for quite so many years because I was dead spiritual, and also rebellious towards my parents, moral, values and upbringing!!!

I had to become a womaniser in order to finance my life while i was still a street kid, but I was blind sleeping with all these innocent women without using protection, thus when i was just a handsome young man at age of 18 years. I was diagnosed for HIV and that day I lost hope thinking that its over about my life and i would never live again. But my (HIV) condition was not end of the road.

I had to commit crime and only to realise later when I was convicted to 38 years imprisonment that really crime does not pay but it will cause you to eat your tears life food.

I had to smoke drugs and become an addict which had caused me to be aggressive and hurtles toward other people.

I had to rob and steel in order to support my drug habit and also to intoxicate myself daily.

I had to quit school and become a hobo and prison environment was like a place of vacation to me. Honestly Speaking I had No,

Vision.
Dream.
Purpose.
Goal.

I nearly killed myself and commit suicide, but above all God who has predestined my journey. He knew that I had to face these ordeals and catastrophes to become a candidate that he can use to inspire and influence the world.

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Stay blessed and be inspired.

HIV & AIDS MUST NEVER BECOME YOUR LIMIT AND A BOUNDARY TO MOVE FORWARD AND EXCEL IN LIFE.

Once upon a time – I was once confronted, and told that I will die and I won’t make it or neither have a bright future in life. Many People were looking at my “HIV Status” but not observing my future and my Destiny.

However, God was looking at me like a champion who can rise up and impact and inspire the World. Its easy for people to define you because of your condition – and also limit you to excel and become extraordinary.

When the world shuts you down, and define you according to your failure and condition. Thus, be courageous and remain positive that God is about to open a new door into your life which leads you to a greater Destiny.

I’d never consider my “HIV Status” as a road stop sign, but instead a bridge to crossover and attain what God has orchestrated for me before the ancient times.

Never consider you HIV Status as a mean to shackled you and constrain you to become successful in life. You are powerful more then the Virus and you are not the virus but God’s image.

You can begin to live your life without limits irrespective of your condition. Remember that when people define according to your condition it is because they can see the greatness in you. There is no one who has time to speak about a mad Person because they know is mad and is not in the right common sense. But the reason you become the topic and everyone speaks about you becosue of your condition its becosue they see something powerful and unique in you.

You are a Champion and a Hero irrespective of you HIV Status.

Your Dream and Goal must be greater then your circumstances.

When I was 18 years old I was diagnosed for HIV & AIDS – and when I was 19 years old I was convicted to 38 years imprisonment. When I arrived to walk in the Midst of those darkest prison corridors where there was no light for the future. Therefore, I came into a stage where I thought it was over about my life, and suicide was the only option available. I attempted to commit Suicide Every Night thinking that if I die I will rest in piece. However, in my hopelessness condition a dynamic radically transformation took place. Thus, after I was empowered to be in charge of my life and turn around my negative situation to become positive.

We all face various ordeals and catastrophes in life – but “Never Give Up” in life becosue you have so much Greatness in you.

My HIV status and my awkward prison condition was never designed to become a mean to constrain me, but instead a bridge to crossover and discover my purpose in life.

You can also change your life irrespective of what others are saying about you.

“SHACKLES OF THE PAST”

SHACKLES OF THE PAST
The reason why so many people are still stacked somewhere in life … and not progressing
and succeeding. The numerous numbers of people not only non-believers even my brothers
and sisters in Christ does face the same scenario in their life journey.
Sharing my true-life adventurous journey, however, on the (02 of November 2007) I was
found guilty for almost 13 high profile cases which was fraud, theft, business breaking, money
laundering, stealing motor vehicles, and drug dealing. Bear in mind on that time I was only
20 years only. When the court magistrate imposes more then 30 years imprisonment. I began
to look at my future negatively and uttered these words upon my life:
Lord why did you brought me on this planet earth? Why should I suffer so much knowing
that I am already HIV POSITIVE? I know I was created and crafted to rot and die in prison
without any “good future and purpose” in life. The vast amount of people even those whom were so called friends shifted away from me and
for 13 years I’d never seen them visiting me while in prison. There are times where I tried to
commit suicide on many occasions because I could not carry the heavy burden alone of being
a prisoner. Nevertheless, God has to put me into isolation so that I could learn to know Him
and know His ways. Today, I have to attest it was not a smooth creamy path, but I had to
face a series of miserable events during my prison time. Furthermore, knowing the fact that
when you arrived in prison you are already infected and “HIV POTIVES” was also affecting
me to become a productive individual.
There was a lot of negative talks and impressions around me and the prison environment
itself was demoralizing and demotivating me to pursue my dreams. I was discriminated and
defined by my “HIV STATUS” and some considered me as a garbage in my “ORANGE
PRISON uniform” But to be honest I have to really thank God, because the day He
stepped into my life there was a radically transformation….!!!!!
Today, I can boldly declare that your situation was never designed to be permanent! But to
train you so that you can become the best product which God can use for His mission. Your
poverty, your background, financial breakdown, your marriage issues, your child who is
rebellious today. Remember whatever, you are going through was designed by God and He
knows everything about you and me and I always ready to turn our negative condition into
positivity.
Therefore, if my HIV STATUS could not limit me to excel while incarcerated in prison. Let
me assure you my lovely brother and sister that you can also do what you were preordained
to become regardless of your ordeals and catastrophes.
Your negative past experiences is not a limit for you to excel and become extraordinary.
Today, I want to tell you that you can still turn things around only if you don’t allow your
past to keep you constrained in the prison of negativity.

HIV & AIDS IS NOT A DEATH SENTENCE

HIV is Not Death Sentence

In this life, we have to make many choices. Some are very important choices. Some are not. Many of our choices are between good and evil. The choices we make, however, determine to a large extent our happiness or our unhappiness, because we have to live with the consequences of our choices.

Some of our important choices have a time line. If we delay a decision, the opportunity is gone forever. Sometimes our doubts keep us from making a choice that involves change. Thus an opportunity may be missed.

I am not sick neither downtrodden and “(HIV)” is not my name. Yes, I am (HIV Positive) that means I’m designed to walk positive in life. So, I choose to “THINK POSITIVE” being HIV Positive it means I must look at life positively.

You can define me by my status, but I know the fact that I’m indefinable.

You can discriminate me but I know I’m undiscriminated. You can label and call me names, but I am glad that I am empowered to break every negative stigma regarding my life.

Those who are HIV Positive

LET’S CELEBRATE LIFE

We were never promised an easy life, but we have strength within us to face it with courage. In that Spirit, let us no Denny ourselves the opportunity to be happy. Of course, it all has to be done within the parameters of adherence to your medication and living positively. You have to be determined and show that you can make it even if you are scared. In that way, you will also inspire others to face HIV positively.

Here’s I wish you a happy awesome “Sunday” May it be prosperous full of health and may your dreams come true.

Last words

You are not HIV and you are not define by HIV but you have a precious name give to you by your parents.

HIV is just on your blood, so its up to you what you want to do today with your life. If you want to die in silence and became a prisoner of HIV its your choice. I personally choose to speak about it daily so that it won’t affect me to live a positive life.

“My True Life Story”

I comprehend, that my life was preordained by God long before He set the entire universe in
order. My journey, failures, challenges, ordeals, catastrophes, trials, tribulations, prison circumstances,
and including my “HIV Status,” have made me to realized, that there are no limits that can hinder
me from reaching my God given destiny – unless I place those limitations upon myself!” Remember,
the choices that you make today – will determine who or what you will become tomorrow: You are the
product of your mind. Thomas Edison asserted “Many of life’s failures are people who did not
realized how close they were to success when they gave up.”
Nhlakanipho Tsakane Siyanda Sikobi, had spent many awkward years on the street – sleeping out in
the cold freezing weather without blankets, he was also imprisoned on numerous occasions.
Nevertheless, he’d never stopped seeking his dreams, purpose, identity and destiny through God’s
Word – regardless of the “ordeals, facing him daily in prison, like the conditions he was experiencing
in his dark prison cell. However; God shone His “Light” upon his life and the zeal to transform and
discover his dream and purpose was born. He’s absolutely convinced that “Winners” were not
intended to be like Springbuck, but are rather similar to a chameleon, they can change their colour at
any time to blend in with their environment. “What I believe is, they are created with perseverance –
and they walk slowly towards their destiny. Chameleon understands that, to persevere is a sign of
“Victory, – No matter what, they will never change their desire, instinct and determination. Success is
not for people who run swiftly like the Springbuck, but for those who ‘imitate the chameleon’ – and
never worry about how long the journey to success will take. They are determined and optimistic. “If
your determination and potential to excel is strong enough, then Failure, will not defeat the
enthusiasm for success within you, nor the power to discover your core purpose in life. I am absolutely
certain that failure will uplift you to a better place than yesterday. Genuine success is made up of life’s
failures and challenges. It is not made of successful activities. Failure is the only door opening up to
greener pastures.
Nhlakanipho Tsakane Siyanda Sikobi, has ventured through a series of prison predicaments, but he
remained optimistic and patient while serving the twelve year sentence he was convicted to! He was
determined to use his awkward time, and years productively in those dark prison corridors, and
hopelessness environment to accomplish his God given dream and purpose. However, he worked very
hard to further his career, and he graduated to earn a diploma in computer studies, (office data
processing and financial management). He also completed a number of Bible courses to enrich his
spiritual life. And is currently studying for a diploma in Theology. He is a studious leader, good
narrator, author, philosopher, philanthropist, life coach, mentor, HIV & AIDS Activist – and He is
also a dynamic motivational speaker and a powerful evangelist. He is the Founder, Director, CEO,
and President of his Non-profit organisation called – “The New Beginning Youth Development
Organisation,” that specializes in equipping the youth of our country. He resides in Margate on the
South Coast of South Africa – Nkothaneni rural settlement with his parents and siblings.